The weekend is over

As our weekend comes to an end, I am thankful for all that I have. My family is healthy, happy and safe. My boys are growing by leaps and bounds, as healthy children do. My husband and I are "finding" each other again. I thoroughly enjoy my friends company (bloggy friends included). My spiritual life is expanding. I just feel so fulfilled right now. It was only yesterday I prayed to the Lord for some guidance because I could feel the gray of depression sneaking in. I haven't had any symptoms of depression since before Zachy was born. And as the darkness was slowly creeping in I sat down and prayed. I needed some help to overcome this, I knew I couldn't do it myself. It has been many years of trying to conquer it alone, never being able to beat it. Since I have found myself in the Grace of God, I feel I can conquer anything. So, yesterday I prayed and spoke with God about my feelings, and low and behold I am feeling much better. There is a new light in my life. I know it may sound silly, but this is the real deal. I have never in my life prayed like this and never in my life felt so good about everything. I realize my life is not "perfect" but I am seeing all the good that is in it. Believe me when I say there is a lot of "bad" things in my life, hard things, sad things. But with God on my side they do not seem so overwhelming. I pray that all of you can find this feeling in your lives. Like my blog friend CC says "a place called peace".

Well now that I said my piece on faith I just want to fill you in on our weekend. Yesterday, Ryan had a birthday party for his friend from school, Skylar. This was very hard on Griffin. It was the first party or event that Ryan was invited to and was not asked to bring Griffin. I knew it was coming, as Ryan goes to the "big" school, he is going to have a life of his own. Griffin really had a hard time with this. I tried my best to make him feel like he wasn't missing out. We played wii together, and tried to play a few games. But his feelings were hurt and he just wanted to watch a movie. What movie did he pick...."Back to the Future". It is just sooo crazy, he loves these movies just like his father. I can't believe it. So, being the nice mommy I am (even though I can't stand those movies) I put it in the DVD player. Thankfully he fell asleep a few minutes into the movie. So much for having special time with just me and Griffin.
Today we went to church. This was the first time they both went to Church School without giving me a hard time. Griffin has gone a couple of times, but not Ryan. Well today was his day, off he went without looking back. I must admit he went into the preschool class room because he wanted to stay with Griffin, even though he should have been in the upstairs kindergarten room. But we didn't push it, as long as he was going that was all we could ask for. After church we had lunch and a little clean up time, then I packed them up to go to the indoor pool (sorry Jodi, we would have called so you could join us, I just didn't want to wake you. I knew you were going to try to nap). They had a blast, but I got a huge headache from the smell of the chemicals and the heat/humidity in there. I was able to start Ryan's scarf even will the headache. After swimming we picked up dinner at KFC and headed home.

As the evening wore on the boys were bathed and in bed by 7:00pm. WoooHooo. 3 boys clean and asleep. What a great ending to a great weekend.

I just had to share this picture. Griffin is just so cute...even from behind.

No Sleep...again

Well last night was another with no sleep. Zachy is just miserable when I lay him down. We had the dr check his ears and they are fine. He has had a cold, but it is clearing up. Maybe he doesn't want to sleep because of the new walking thing. Although he will sleep if someone is holding him. He just doesn't want to lay down. I know it sounds like he is spoiled, but he was a baby that had to be in his crib to sleep just a week ago. Not sure what is going on, but man I am tired.

I missed the Ash Wednesday service at church yesterday. Dinner was only suppose to take 40 minutes to cook, but after one hour and 15 minutes I took it out and we ate it anyway. By then it was to late to go to church, and I was too tired. So you would think I went to bed early. Oh no, I stay up until 10:30. "Doing something very important?" you ask. Nope, just knitting. I couldn't put it down. It was quiet, no kids, no husband, no TV, just me and my needles and yarn (and of course my ever present dog, Cassie).

My only girl, Cassie, is always next to me. She rarely leaves my side, only to go out and play with the kids. She is the best dog. My husband likes to complain about her, but she is so well behaved and is so good with the kids and other puppies. Plus, she has the sweetest face.


Cassie playing with my sisters new puppy, Daia.


Cassie just hanging out next to me, and Zachy.

Look who is walking now!

My little baby is now walking (sniff, sniff). I am so happy but yet I am so sad. He is only 10 1/2 months old. He won't crawl, he only scoots and walks. It is so funny. This is when I thank God that I am a stay at home mom. If my baby was taking his first steps in daycare, it would kill me. To me the thought of someone else enjoying my baby's firsts is sad. Even if they don't tell me and I think I was the first one to see it. I am utterly thankful that I am home with my kids. Although sometimes they do drive me nuts.

Should be doing housework...

Here I sit with the laptop in my lap. I should be putting clothes away and starting a load of laundry. I could be vacuuming, doing dishes or just picking up. But I am so tired and have a horrible cold. Zachy was up a lot last night because he is still sick. He has a snotty nose and must just feel yucky. He has whined all morning and can't decide what he wants. First he wants me to hold him and then be put down, then eat and not eat. Finally I put him down for a nap. Which of course he didn't want, but feel asleep after fussing for a few minutes.

It is so hard seeing your baby and children sick. I can't image how it must feel to have you little one struggling to live in the NICU. I am saddened by a cold, and it is just a cold. I feel for all little preemie babies and caner sick children and their families. I really feel the need to get out there and do more. I support the Relay for Life and I have been the neighborhood fundraiser for the mothers march, but I need to do more. Maybe I will look into the Walk for babies. The March of Dimes will be holding a walk on April 26th (I think). Would anyone be interested in making a team with me? I think the walk is 7 miles, which I can do myself but would be nice if some people joined me. I will look into it. Just give me a heads up if you would like to join me in supporting them. Thanks. I will keep you posted.

Here is a picture of my friends twins. They were born 8 1/2 weeks early. This picture was taken after weeks in the NICU and they started to get better. They were very sick little babies, and we are very thankful they are with us. They are now 2 years old and doing very well!

It is hard to look at these pictures now. Ryan Joseph was so very sick, they didn't not think he would make it. He was diagnosed with NEC. After a bit of research on it we came to realize just how sick he was. Bethany would forget to breath quite often, many times turning blue and having to be resuscitated a couple of times. How scary for parents. I thank God for the health children we have. Thank you, Alicia and Dave for allowing me to be a part of their life's.

Please Pray for Dylan

My sister-in-law Jodi's friend (Becky) had her baby boy yesterday. Dylan was born 6 weeks early and weighs a mere 3lbs 7oz. He is doing great from what I hear, breathing on his own with no oxygen and eating on his own. He will be in the NICU for about 2 weeks if all stays well. That is what I am asking from you...Please pray he continues to do so well, as we all know in the preemie world things can go from great to horrible in a blink of an eye. Please pray that he continues to do well and will be home in his mommy's arms soon.

All I can think of as I pray for Dylan and Becky is the March of Dimes and how much the work they do makes such a difference in premature birth. If it wasn't for the March of Dimes a lot of preemie babies would never have made it home. Thank you to all the people that donate to the March of Dimes and to all the people doing the great research for the March of dimes.

Not Me! Monday

Its that time again. "Not me!" Monday was created by Mckmama for a way to say the things we would normal never admit to. Stop by My Charming Kids to read other "not me's!" or post your own.

- It wasn't my cell phone that rang in the middle of church yesterday. I would never be so forgetful to not turn it off before entering church.

-It wasn't me that ate so much at my mother-in-laws birthday party that I felt sick to my stomach later that night. "Not Me!"

-I did not get mad a my husband because he chose NASCAR over going to the church welcome dinner with me and the kids. I understand him not wanting to attend church service but a dinner with a lot of people we already know, and being with his family. But really I don't understand how he can chose sports over us. Ok that was me, but I think I had the right to be angry about that.

-It was Not Me! that hasn't blogged in days. I have so many important things to say I could never go that long (yeah right).

-It was Not Me! that sent my days knitting instead of the house work. But if it was me, I made a beautiful hat for my sister-in-laws baby. Which I can't wait to meet.

-I was not the mom that jumped for joy that the kids went back to school today. What kind of mother would that be. Not me, I am the perfect loving mom.

-It was Not Me! that put my sons snow pants in the wash with tootsies rolls in the pocket. I would have checked all pockets before putting them in the washer and drier. I would have checked the jacket pockets also and the chap stick would not have gone though the wash. See what happens when I do the laundry, I should just give up. Heehee

What did you Not do this week.....

Its been a long time

I am so sorry it has been a long time since my last post. We have been very busy. The boys are on school break so we went sledding today at church hill. It was so much fun. I didn't think to grab my camera, but the boys were just flying down the hill, laughing all the way down. I have also been spending a lot of the time knitting. I just love to sit and knit so my hands have been too busy to type. We have been going to church and reading the bible (the children's read and learn bible). The boys went to the church school for the first time this past Sunday. They really had a good time and told me they want to go there again this Sunday. Griffin told me that Ryan cried a little when they first got to the classroom, but then he had a good time. Ryan has always had a hard time with separation. It has gotten a lot better.

Well I am really itching to knit. Hopefully I will post more tomorrow.